Hate days like today

OK not sure about this whole blog thing. It might make me more depressed then I am already. Or make me cry. These damn hormones are killing my moods. I think it is called pre-menopause. Not sure- but it sucks!
Anyway- am having one of those days where it all feels bad. I feel like I don't have any friends. I feel like I am a bad person for the people around me don't choose to do anything with me. I asked someone to go to the mall with myself and my kid. They told me that they did not have time to go this week, then I see on Facebook where they went to the mall with someone else! What am I supposed to think of that??? IDK.
I could make up excuses in my mind for why they went- after telling me that they did not have time... but who really knows. I would not ask them. I am just gonna pretend that I don't know, and maybe stop trying to be their friend. I guess I really don't need their friendship- if this is how its gonna be. This is not the first time either. I guess I thought that she was my friend, and with out being rude- she is indicating that she is not really. Oh well. I think that is too bad. Does it mean that it is me- or that she is just not worth being my friend? I wish I could just say- whatever- and move on... but it is harder then that. I don't really have any friends- and it is hard.
There are days where I could care less if I have friends, and other days like today that I do care- and it is hard.
I feel like a whiner- but I need somewhre to put my thoughts. My family is great- but it is not the same thing. I can't go to any one and tell them how I feel... what a whiner... my life could be so much worse... but I still feel this way- and wish to express it somewhere.